little things

realized today how so many things in my life re so completely out of my control. and i have spent way to much time worrying about things that i can do nothing about. And i was thinkin about my day at work tonight and couldnt help but laugh about how rediculous some things were today. My maintenance guys are amazing and they seem to go out of their way to make sure im laughing and smiling. they have somehow taken bad things and put a spin on them to make them funny. and they both were really there for me the other day when things got rough. my friends have been amazing and so crazysupportive helping me with all the things i have had to deal ih the last 6 months. and its nice to hear them tell me how wonderful it is to be able to hear the smile in my voice again. my kids have been this amazing source of strength for me and i just feel very blessed to have them. I am finally back to a place where i can sit back and see so much to be happy about. so much i am thankful for again. withall the bad that happened 6 months ago i can honestly see the brite side of things again.  like a very dark cloud has been lifted. i know there are more hard times ahead but for now im enjoying the peace i have found. i have even made some new friends. one in particular that seems to have my attention greatly. i really like this new life i have built for myself. just feel really lucky tonight.