Changes changes and more changes lol

So I havent blogged in a few years. Just stepped away from it all. Realized just how crazy i was beginning to sound lol. Life is very good these days. I have found so much peace in my life and the level of happiness is truely amazing and sometimes overwhelming. I went thru so much the last few years trying to find myself and trying to figure out where I am spose to be. It was an amazing yet scary bumpy crazy rediculous ride. But I have finally learned enough about myself to understand everything and have come to terms with all of it now. Only recently was I able to just let go of all the bad that happened in the past and to move on. I was never going to be able to move on with my life till I let go of the past. I didnt even realize just how much I was caught up in my past till it was pointed out to me. So I had one hell of a good cry. Screamed and yelled and then just like a balloon I let go of everything that was weighing me down. Was an amazing feeling. It was a free feeling. And now my head is held high and theres a real true smile on my face. I found my own happiness and am amazed at all the doors that have opened up due to this. Now I am the proud mom/step mom to 8 amazing kids. I have 2 beautiful grandbabies that make my world so worth living. I have an amazing man that says Im his sparkle which always makes me smile. I am a proud homeowner with a mini farm in the works, and I couldnt be happier. So now it is time to get back to the happy real life blogs and stories of my crazy life and crazy family. I have so much to be thankful for. I found my limits and learned to push past them. I have lost so much and so many people I thought were friends. But what I realized was I couldnt deal with everyones drama anymore. So I slowly let go of all the people dragging me down and now I am surrounded by friends that are truely good people with amazing stories and lives. Im meeting new people all the time since we have been doing this homesteading thing. I have an awesome outlook on life now. I see the good once again in everything. And I am so happy that I have finally found my inner peace. And I thank all who helped me get back up each time I stumbled and fell. Very few will understand all this. But those that do know how hard I fought to get where I am today. Being truely happy is so worth the fight. God bless and I look forward to blogging once again.