realization....

As many of my friends and family know I am a very deep person, very twisted, complicated way of thinking and many times just completely misunderstood. Im an open book. Im raw and emotional. I have no fear of telling things the way I see it and if people dont like it well then thats ok too. If you cant handle the way I think or the way I feel then I guess maybe you are not the right person to be in my life. And thats ok to. :) I want people in my life that are with me not matter what state of mind im in lol. Last week I had a total meltdown after loosing someone that was very dear to me. I think the loss sent me into an almost crazed person state of mind. I acted like an idiot to several people and said some things I really wish I wouldnt have. So if I offended anyone or said anything out of line then please take this as my personal public apology. I wasnt ok last week. But as of today Im good and back to my normal self. Please keep in mind I said "my" normal not yours LOL. Many of you know I work with my emotions and feelings like switches. I can turn them on and off easily. Last week they all flipped on and i was just overwhelmed. So no fears people I have once again turned off all switches except those to my kids. Im seeing things very clearly today and am ok with what I see in front of me. So please no more worries towards me. No need to waste another moment wondering if Im gonna go postal. Im good now :) And to the couple of people I actually talked to about things thanks for listening to me and letting me figure it all out in my head. We all know how unreal it is in my head LOL Luv u all :)